Inside

Usually the way to introduce oneself to the world is difficult. Even more when the language is not native. I live in Santiago de Chile, South America, but my heart lives very far from here, in the old continent. Since my childhood I have felt Europe close to me. Do not ask me why, but it is true. I have had the luck to go to Europe several times and I have felt that connection quite intense. Even more when I have been walking through places related to the ancient times as the middle age or renaissance. I love those eras.

I bought a poster of a great castle a lot of years ago because it enchanted me at once. I had maybe 15 year old. I did not know that the castle name was Neuschwanstein. I simply fell in love of it. I never dreamt that I could be there someday. But the time had come and I was there, walking through each room and recording every detail in my mind. It was a gift of God. In that moment I began to believe in dreams. Nothing is impossible if you believe, if I believe.

Now my life has been a zig zag: sometimes good another one bad. I have felt the plenitude of joy but also the dark anguish of despair. I do not have answers for a lot of questions but I have understood that patience is the greatest virtue, although it is the hardest one. I have also learned the first steps to reach the infinity according to the catholic church and it has been really wonderful. This part of the history needs an extra page, so I will write about it in the future.

Thoughts and dreams… much that to say. I believe that it is an introduction very clear to summarize all my essence. Along my life I have discovered many things that have transformed my spirit and day after day they have been renewing my visions and reasons. I believe that the real world has changed. Already it is not the same of before and his people has changed with it. Many people try to ignore this change, others fight for it, but nobody “be” only to enjoy it and try to be a better human being the time that we have left.

To speak about oneself never is easy, mainly when it is the first time that I create a Blog. I have always felt the desire to be able to share my thoughts with somebody more. Those thoughts can be useless to anyone but I believe there are people in the outside whose souls have felt that they are different from the rest and into their deepest being they have felt a deep yearning of infinite.

I want to share my world, a world during many years hidden, segmented only by my dreams, joy and sadnesses. I want to open a door, a passage between a dark world that everyone of us have inside and the same reality that often is darker than the previous one. Everyone of us have their own sufferings and sadnesses and we wish to often avoid them but I believe that it is better to live with them. It is not a way to live now for me in the present. It has been very difficult to understand why pain is important to see the real meaning of the things. Have you seen how everything fall down when some pain arrives? I have lived this situation. We can have a very nice day but suddenly the pain arrives and everything changes. Changes all of your interests and fights. You starts to run the race of life.

We live in a different reality, a more and more chaotic reality, everything works more and more fast, the technology is enchanting us and simultaneously it is killing step by step the few humanity that we have left.
Maybe these words can be quite dramatic but it is my view, my inner feeling, my present, my state of mind. I do not know if tomorrow I will change my thought, but that is the grace of life: we never know what will happen tomorrow. Only God knows. That is enough. I want to discover and live the paths from here to Heaven.

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